Good night, sweet prince: And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest...
-William Shakespeare

It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.
-Rose Kennedy

Friday, April 25, 2008

On the road again...

just can't wait to get on the road again. (Thanks Willie, for the words!) Truly I CAN wait to get on the road again! We're headed to Shan's home town in Southeast Iowa tomorrow. It'll be a short trip but long too! The drive is four and a half hours each way and we're coming home Sunday morning. It's truly a trip for Shan but he says he wants to spend quality time with me...I think that's more like quantity time but hey, it's time right? I'll stop complaining about that, at least I have time.

I hope everyone had a good week and that it was a bit softer (easier) for all of you. For me it's been strange, I've been checking in and not commenting much which truly makes me feel bad. I just needed sometime to see where I was. I'm still not sure where that is. It's four months and I am feeling, I don't know how I'm feeling. It's not as harsh as it has been in the past, which I guess is good. I smile more, even when I think of William. I can look at babies in the store without wanting to throw up. I still can't hold one though. That's alright, all in due time right?

We're mushroom hunting and trying to avoid ticks(as if!). Found a few and will start noshing on them tonight...can't wait! Yummy! I used to dislike mushrooms or so I thought until Shan and "Big Daddy" made (not really) me try them. Now, I can't get enough...I'll eat them until I'm sick, which happens every year and every year, I say I won't eat so many! This year I am sure will be no different.

Let's go back a bit, I'm not ready for this trip to Shan's home. We haven't seen his family since we lost William. I'm not sure I can emotionally hold up during our short stay. I am taking my valyummy with me and will surely drink Saturday night at the best damned Chicken joint ever (yes, fried chicken and yes, the BEST!). Which, I guess isn't a bad thing as long as Shan drives!
I'm hoping that I don't have to answer 100 questions but I am hoping to answer a few. I'm hoping that they don't act as though nothing has happened. I don't think I can handle that and now, I'm too verbal to try to handle it quietly. I guess someone needs to help their souls if they DON'T say anything!

For now, I will hope and pray (not that they are ever answered!) that all goes well. I will not have Internet service while I am there, so I will most definitely catch up with you all on Sunday.
Thank you all for all of your support throughout the past months I do truly appreciate it. Without you all, I'd still be in bed with the covers over my head!


yummysushipajamas said...

Enjoy your trip, and your time with Shan! I am so glad you've been feeling better and more able to smile. As for seeing the family, just breakdown and cry if you need to. Be honest with everybody about how you're feeling.

I can't wait for an update.

Aunt Becky said...

I hope that you have an amazing, exhilarating and awesome trip.

And save some chicken for me, okay?

c. said...

I hope you have a wonderful trip, Amy and that being with the fams isn't too difficult on you. Hurry back. You'll be missed. XO.