Playwright Eugene Ionesco said, "Ideology separate us. Dreams and anguish bring us together."

I've always liked quotes from others...I usually find a few a week that I write down and mull over. I have a show I watch Cri.minal Mi.nds,it's a show that is probably not good for my brain but for some reason, the evil must be watched! Anyhow, at the beginning and the end of this show someone reads a quote. Lately, I have found in watching re-runs and even new shows that their quotes are amazing. So, I snagged the one above...as I snagged the one the other day. Quotes give us all something to think about.

Isn't the quote above oh, so true...the Dreams and Anguish I feel sure have brought me to feel closer to all of you...my anguish brought me to blogland and my dreams keep me here. I dream for all of us, not just myself!

There is another quote that rings in my head, day after day, I read it on a church board a LONG time ago...I keep it tucked deep within my soul and on occasion I speak it to remember, "The best things in life, are not things." That's right, my best things are my friends (you all included here!), my family, my pets, my memories. Hmm, do you consider those things? I don't!

Can you tell me what your dreams are? Are they more than the usual we all have here?What are the best things in your life?

A million thank you's

Katie, thank you for posting my Memorial Monday...you are an amazing woman!

Katie does Memorial Monday's and has posted one for William and I. She has a heart of gold and I am grateful to call her my friend! Please go check Katie out today (a shameless plug for you to read today's Memorial Monday!)and everyday!

There are not words...

I am so thrilled to say Congratulations to you, Janis! Congratulations and Welcome to the world little one!

Please go Welcome the new one to the world over at Ferdinand's Gifts

Again, there are not enough words in this world to say how happy I am for you!

A thought...sort of...

Wendell Berry said, "The past is our definition. We may strive with good reason to escape it, or to escape what is bad in it. But we will escape it only by adding something better to it."

My truth is I don't want to escape my past. I do however want to add something better to my life.

Tell me do you want to escape your past?

Airplanes and such

I'll be leaving on an airplane at the end of March. I'll be going to Washington D.C.
I've been invited to attend SIDS/SUID and Stillbirth-A National Research and Advocacy Symposium. There will be a speaker there who believes that a lot of the research for all of us that has been done up to this point is virtually unusable because of the restrictive participation of the parents. I hope he shakes it all up and they push for more participation of the parents that walk our shoes. As I am sure you can guess, I am beyond excited and can't wait for March to get here!

All in all things are going alright here. I will be attending my support group tonight which will be very good for me. I haven't been in over three months. I am as sick as it is to say looking forward to going. It doesn't make me feel much better but it does make me feel less alone. Those in real life meetings really help!

Hoping the New Year is bringing you all what you hoped for or at the very least bringing you some peace.

To a better 2009

I'll raise a glass of something (beer, eggnog, wine, water) to us all tonight. Albeit before midnight. I'm hoping for a better 2009 for all of us.

This last year I was mired in my grief. I didn't do anything to help myself physically. I gained weight while I was pregnant and I kept in on after I lost William. I plan on losing weight this year. Is that a resolution? No, it's a promise I'd like to keep to myself. I started smoking again after I lost William. I'd like to promise myself that I will quit that nasty habit too. So what are my resolutions? I can't say that I truly have any. Maybe one could or should be that I resolve to clean my house every week. I resolve to organize my life. Ok, so that's 2. Maybe those are the two that I know I can stick to. I would like to resolve to be a kinder person, one who cares more about others than myself. To be honest, there's a part of me who wants to care more about me than anyone else. I can't say that I have ever done that one for myself.

I'm co-dependent, others problems are so much easier for me...they don't affect me directly and I can say a lot of things to help others. I never, well, almost never take my own advice. Maybe I should learn to do that this next year.

So, instead of resolutions tonight I will make wishes. I have a lot of wishes for 2009. I'll start the list here and now. Maybe by writing it down, I will feel like they may very well be granted.

Wish List for 2009
1. To find peace
2. For all of us to have happy, healthy lives and babies (happy, healthy ones)in this coming year!
3. For someone to find a cure for ALL cancers!
4. For us all to live long lives plus see number 2!
5. To reconnect with family and friends that I have pushed away in the last year.
6. To spend more time with my Gram!
7. For world peace!(Yes, that sounds like a Play.boy Play.mate answer but it's true!)
8. For Shan and I to get married.
9. For a couple of vacations this year (Didn't take a single one last year and really need a couple this year!)
10. To pay off all debt...yes this would require winning the Powe.rba.ll but hey, a girl can dream and this is a wish list!

So, tell me what are your resolutions or your wishes for 2009?

ETA: I edited this for the stupid spelling errors I made! Sorry!

Post three of three with explanation!

Now my order may be all messed up but, I'm sure you can get the idea! Brent wrote a wonderful letter to go with his balloon, Libby drew pictures and you see the front of the invite and the balloons before release in post 1. Post two contains Becky's letter(heartfelt and heart touching, not aching), a snowflake that Grammi sent to William (one that she made), Shan and the kids walking to release the balloons, the balloons released and the piece of cake that we have for William! Post 3, this post contains, a picture my sister and her husband gave us, the t-shirt Brent made for me with a hawk on it and Williams name, and the tree with the lights on.

I neglected to get pictures of all of our outside lights last night. To be honest, I was exhausted! The day went off without a hitch and William's Godparents even came over to join us for the entire celebration. Shan and I were both pleased with all that went on. Yes, I sent a letter to heaven from Shan and I but that one we'll keep to ourselves.

Thank you all for all of your support and well wishes and Birthday wishes to William. I just know he heard you all!