Good night, sweet prince: And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest...
-William Shakespeare

It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.
-Rose Kennedy

Thursday, November 6, 2008

A little hope.

Today, I picked up the phone and called the hospital. T. had gone in on the 4th to be induced. 37 weeks was long enough and they scheduled the induction a long time ago. She answered in a tired voice and I asked, "So, are you all, all right?" "Yes,” she said and the dialogue began. We have a girl, born yesterday, I'm tired and she's under the lights. I was scared, it was scary, she said. Her heartbeat kept dropping, my water broke, they were pushing fluid back in. They thought maybe it was a cord issue and the cord needed fluid around it to move. I finally dilated and it was quick once that happened. I asked although I already knew, "what's her name?" "Drew," she said. Tears flowed freely down my face. I tried to keep the upbeat voice I knew she needed to hear. "Congratulations, T., I am really happy for you, really!" T. Has had the hard struggle we have. Her only full term child, Andrew, was born still last year. Now, his sister will carry his name, of sorts!

I told T., I knew she needed rest, I would be talking to her soon as I need a measurement so as to send her a gift. She doesn't read this so I can say; I ordered a sling, from Hip Melon. I ordered the Carry On My Wayward Son sling. I figure, this is a gift of many sorts, it is a reminder of Andrew, it's for Drew to be carried in as though her brother were carrying her and it's a gift for T. who knows what our path is like. Anyhow, I hung up the phone and sobbed uncontrollably for 3 minutes and then I sighed a sigh of relief. I didn't know how stressful it could be to wait for someone else’s child to come into the world.

Welcome, Drew to this new world, your siblings that are here with you will take good care of you along with of course your parents. Your brother in Heaven will walk you through life and help guide you. I am so happy you made it, so very happy, I cannot wait to meet you!


c. said...

Oh, Amy, you. are. beautiful. I hope T wears little Drew proudly. And I have to say: What a wonderful way T has chosen to connect brother to sister.

Big hugs to you, hon. I hope you get the same chance as T one day soon. Fingers crossed. XO.

Amy said...

Thank you C., for everything you have given me. You have given me a way to make sure that Callum carries on and the rest of our children too. You along with your (yes it's still yours, to me)company have given me a great gift to give to Mother's of Rainbow children! I hope some day we both, you and I get the chance that T has.

Much love and peace to you!

Cara said...

Amy - you're love is endless. I saw the sling as a link on Callum's day. I LOVED it!

I'm running through the list in my head of who I could get it for. Sadly, all my recently pg friends have lost their babies.

(big sigh) -

Just Me. said...

Thank you Amy for sharing this story with us. You are really and truly a wonderful friend!!!

I have been thinking of you to see if you're ok. Big hugs, Amy.


Aunt Becky said...

Amy, you know how much I heart you, right? Because it's a big sloppy hugs worth.

janis said...

Wow, Amy... what a wonderful gift and so meaningful!
I love the name Drew... and that connection to her brother. It made me choke too.