You never know what you will get until you take a bite.
Since being "asked" (read, kicked out of, that's how I feel about it)to leave support group, I have actually accomplished a whole lot more than I thought I would. Have I gone to another group? No, I have turned to Shan, which is who I should have been talking to first anyway! He's been incredibly supportive and since his grief train has just started coming around the bend we've been able to help one another. Grief takes a break and then comes back with avengence...she's cruel and evil! I have been working a lot and staying busy which is a very good thing.
The big guy ended up in the hospital about a month ago, we almost lost him...phone call at 2 am said, "you need to come back, they aren't sure he's going to make it." He made it, he's grumpy and home now, but most of all he's alive! Cancer is an evil disease, kind of like grief, cancer too takes a break and then comes back with avengence! Trying to get into clinical trials is no easy task...the news reports on something and you can't get a trial with the same drug ANYWHERE! I have searched everywhere! It wears me out and makes me sad and yes it angers me!
We attended our 1st Ste.am show of the season and it was wonderful...hot yes, but so much fun to be with great friends who just plain understand life! Now it's of to Io.wa for the holiday! Excited to see our fabulous family and eat spectacular chicken at our favorite place in south.east Io.wa!
I would love to talk about what else I've been up to but know that some people use my blog to attack and hurt me, I cannot talk about all I have been doing here. I so wish I could share with you all because it's what I love and what I'm good at but some(you know who you are, since I'm sure you are still reading to see if I talk about you!) just don't have the security in themselves to read this and leave me be!
Wow, yes, I sound bitter and I guess a bit of me is... well, maybe a lot of me!