Good night, sweet prince: And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest...
-William Shakespeare


It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.
-Rose Kennedy

Saturday, September 13, 2008

9 months

My dearest William,

Mommy wishes so much that you were here to celebrate this huge marker with. I miss you more than words can possibly begin to say. The last nine months have been so hard and yet, at the same time, so rewarding. I have met many miraculous women that have walked in my shoes. I don't like that I have met them for this reason but I am more grateful everyday to know them.

Daddy and I have gone through our ups and downs and as for giving you a brother or sister, well, that has yet to be decided on just one side of the fence. Mommy is ready. Another child will NEVER replace you, my dear son. You will always hold a very special place in my heart and soul. You are the one that got away. I realized the other day, when you were still here with me, living inside of me, I had asked Grammi, How will I ever let him go? How will I be strong enough to let him grow up? How will I trust that he'll choose the right things in life? Grammi said, you'll learn and one day you just will. Well, I didn't realize it then, but I realize it now, I had to let you go a whole lot earlier than my head was even allowing for and my heart, oh, my dear child, my heart still doesn't want to let you go. I don't think it ever will.

More than the sun and the moon and the stars, we love you Sweet William.
Mommy and Daddy

14 comments:

Ange said...

Precious little William. How i wish you could be with your Mummy today..holding her close. Instead I know you are holding her heart. Thinking of you dear Amy on this hard day.

Antigone said...

The time passes too quickly.

Mrs. Spit said...

(((((hugs)))))

yummysushipajamas said...

Thinking of you and your sweet boy today. I can't believe it has been six months already.

Just Me. said...

Big hugs coming your way.

Becky said...

(((hugs))) Thinking of you...

I wonder the same thing, about letting them go. We must be incredible mother's because it was way to soon to let them go...

G said...

Much love to you Amy.
xox

CLC said...

thinking of you and william!

Aunt Becky said...

Thinking of all of you, Amy. And sending kisses and hugs to heaven for William.

janis said...

oh Amy... I am in tears. ((hugs)) to you.
I had the same questions as you did- how to let go? I so hear you, and gently I hold your heart in mine.

Tash said...

Thinking of you and William. We won't forget him, either.

Cara said...

A beautiful message to your little boy. His is so handsome. (hugs)

Amy said...

Thank you all so very much for your kind words. We both miss our little guy terribly so. Ange, he does hold my heart and always will. Antigone, the time does pass to quickly. Mrs. Spit, thanks for the hugs! YSP., I can't believe it's been so long either! P., I think I felt the hugs! Becky, I like to think that I would have been an incredible Mom to him here! G., thank you and I have been thinking about you a lot lately, I just can't bring myself to say, "hi!", so well, "hi!" CLC, I think of you and Hannah a lot I know the times must be very rough for you. Aunt Becky, I am sure he felt every single kiss and hug you sent. Thank you! Janis, that has been the hardest thing for me when it comes to kids, how to let go! Tash, thank you for not forgetting us, for not forgetting my boy! Cara, thank you for the kind words, it means a lot to me.

Truly, you all are the most amazing women I have ever met, I wish I had words. Thank you just never seems enough!

Coggy said...

Hi Amy,

Just wanted to stop by and say hello and check up how you're doing. Time is flying by and even when I duck out of blogland for ages it just feels like 5 mins. I hope you are well and that things are OK with you.

You stopped by my blog and asked for a link. It's on the post but the colour is so similar it's hard to see the link in the text. Just in case it's unreadable the blog is: http//the-smallest-glimmer.blogspot.com