Good night, sweet prince: And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest...
-William Shakespeare

It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.
-Rose Kennedy

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Happy Birthday!

So, you'd be 2 today! Your Grammi, Aunt, Uncles, cousins, & Godparents came to celebrate you with us! Grandpa Wayne couldn't be here today as he's in hospital and Grandpa B, came by earlier bringing you a gift! You have a stuffed Stingray now, and man is it cute! ! Grammi brought your ornament...some Mittens, they are so little and cute and were wrapped in sun, moon, and stars, tissue paper! We had pizza, as per our usual and cup cakes...the kids and women, sang happy birthday and the kids blew out your candles. The kids turned on the lights, inside and out and they will be on now until after the new year! We had a good time, weird to say but true! There is a sense of peace that comes about on your birthday! I know you are alright!

Happy Birthday our little one! We love you, more than the sun, the moon and the stars!

Monday, December 7, 2009

Dearest William,

Twenty-four months, it's an unforgiving amount of time. In three short days it'll be two years since I found out that your heart stopped. In six days it'll be two years since I held you. This year has been full of obstacles the greatest for me is the fact that you are not here with us. I really don't have words to describe my feelings this year. I am upset because I haven't yet decided what to do for your birthday. I want to do something but it seems that November and December suck for our families anymore, we have all sorts of bad that happens and it all happens around your season. Your season being the start of the holiday season, you know Halloween! That kicks it off, your costumes that Grandpa Wayne got you hang in the closet awaiting me to do something with them, I look at them and will never fill them. Then we have Thanksgiving, I'm thankful for a lot but I am hard pressed to be joyous about too much! Then we have St. Lucia Day (not celebrated in the US but in Sweden which is a huge part of your heritage) St. Lucia Day is your day, you are a child of light! Although in Sweden the child of light is a girl...I choose to believe that it can be you! You were born onto this earth on the very day it's celebrated! So, once again, as my thoughts go back in time, I think once again I'll have the kids over we'll light up the house with the Christmas lights and have some cake. Hopefully, I can get the energy to clean the house...but if not, it'll be family anyhow! Kiddo, I love you, I miss you more than words can say and I love you more than the sun, the moon and the stars.
With all of my heart,
Your Mommy