Good night, sweet prince: And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest...
-William Shakespeare

It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.
-Rose Kennedy

Tuesday, June 23, 2009


So, I haven't been blogging much, I haven't had the time, or well the energy! This is how lazy I've been, last week I ran out of sugar of which I use every morning for my coffee. I go to the store once a day or at the least every other day, I kept forgetting it so I used the chocolate coffee syrup, when it was gone I used the vanilla coffee syrup, I used all of it. Then I turned to the cosmopolitan sugar I had in the liqour cabinet, you know the pink colored sugar you put on the rim of a cosmo glass?! Yes, I had pinkish colored coffee for about a week. Shan looked at the sugar and said, "what the hell is that?" to which I replied, " I keep forgetting sugar and this is all I have, you know, I like my coffee polluted!" "Ewww, gross, that's disgusting!" he said. So, yes, lazy I am but now I have sugar, the real thing and all is good, well at least where the coffee is concerned!

It is 96.8 degrees today with a heat index of 105 NO I DO NOT live in ARIZONA or the desert! It is flippin' hot! You can hardly step outside for more than 2 seconds without breaking a sweat! Fat girls don't like heat! It's not like I can put on a bikini and lounge outside...that would scare even me not to mention the drivers on the highway out front of my house! I can only imagine the accidents it would cause!

Shan and I went to the grocery store the other day, 87 degrees with the heat index of 100 and parked next to us was a car with an elderly, hairy, beautiful dog. The windows were up. We proceeded to do our shopping, when we returned 20 minutes later said vehicle with dog was still there. I was angry now...Shan went back in the store and told the officer (you know the one they hire to stand around and look good!) about the dog. I was contemplating breaking a window, I know better but still. Dog vs. Heat not good! Officer came out and wrote down license plate and went back in to have it announced over head...Shan wanted to unload groceries so we came home...he was afraid he'd unload on them! We rushed to unload groceries and jumped back in the car to go make sure the dog wasn't still there. No dog, no car but really how dumb are people? I want to tell them, "why don't you sit your ass in the car with no air, no water, and the windows up for as long as you left your pet!" How do you think that would make them feel?

Some days are just like this, you have to vent and such!

Father's Day went well for Shan, although for me not so good! Shan decided that since it was Father's Day I HAD to do everything for him! Such is life! At least he enjoyed his day!

No good way to wrap this up so off to a steam show I go this weekend and hope the heat doesn't off me!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

It's been a long strange trip...

well not exactly but it sounds good anyhow! I'm completely out of the loop here in blogland and I apologize tremendously for that. I have plenty of excuses but will only use the pertinent one to explain! WORK is busy and scary all at once! We have been busy and working on policies is kind of's keeping me going in all directions!

On the grief front, she (grief) seems to have decided to take a vacation! We had a couple of interesting weeks where Wayne was in hospital and not doing to well but, he is since home and doing good! He's alive and that's what matters most, at least to me! I'm selfish that way!

We are gearing up for steam show season and will be hitting the road weekend after next to go to our 1st show of the season with the steam engine! It's going to be HOTTTTT and muggy or it'll rain like the monsoons hit the plain states...we'll see what happens, anyhow, it's a chance to get away from responsibilities and act like a child again myself! It'll be the 1st time since losing William that I will feel like this is a vacation and not a chore! I kinda frighten myself with how excited I am about it!

Most everything is going well here except of course the economy but hey, that's hitting everyone, everywhere! One day it will all turn around and we'll all be better people for it all!

Do hope that this finds everyone well and I will be posting again soon, I promise! Next time it won't be so mundane, I don't think!