tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-614589653181019963.post8033981837263412680..comments2023-07-10T06:59:40.223-07:00Comments on Where to go from here? ... Life without William Henry.: I am now the mother of a child I can't even hold.Amyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00912286121374215944noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-614589653181019963.post-6339503774055683822008-01-27T08:41:00.000-08:002008-01-27T08:41:00.000-08:00To hlharts:never mind, I figured out who you are! ...To hlharts:<BR/>never mind, I figured out who you are! Thank you again for the comments and your blog! AAmyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00912286121374215944noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-614589653181019963.post-75959552324711521452008-01-27T08:33:00.000-08:002008-01-27T08:33:00.000-08:00hlharts, Thank you for the comment, it is perfectl...hlharts, <BR/>Thank you for the comment, it is perfectly fine to comment! <BR/>I have been searching for your blog and I can't connect, would love to know who you are. Again, thank you and I hope you are right, I hope to hold my little man again.Amyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00912286121374215944noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-614589653181019963.post-40378112086515574362008-01-27T08:13:00.000-08:002008-01-27T08:13:00.000-08:00You will not be the person you once were, but if y...You will not be the person you once were, but if you try you will find a new person who is pretty likable as well. The basic bits of who you are are still there. Now sadness is one of the forces that has shaped you as well. It will always be with you, but I believe that over time it becomes more like a major scar. You can see it, you can feel it, but it no longer hurts so much... it no longer bleeds or keeps you from moving.<BR/><BR/>You do lose a lot of ability to relate to previous friends, but the really good ones will stick around, wait you out, and be there on the other side.<BR/><BR/>Little boys will hit you hard for a very long time, but even that will soften and you will begin to feel a tiny touch of happiness for that family and their baby. <BR/><BR/>I know just what you mean about the feeling toward people who have children they don't want though. One of my sisters has a child that she never wanted, and now treats poorly. Because of that, I no longer speak to her at all. I just can't.<BR/><BR/>I don't know what you believe in terms of heaven or afterlife, and I do not want to press my own beliefs on you at all... however, I will say that I believe you WILL hold your son again one day. I know that is hardly a comfort right now, but maybe it can be something that provides you some small measure of hope?<BR/><BR/>The fear WILL begin to fade as well, as long as you really want it to. It will begin to go away. You will begin to feel normal again, though that normalcy will take some time to set in because normal is different than it once was...<BR/><BR/>I am sorry if I talk to much. Please tell me if you would rather I not comment, or at least not in this way. I just know how you feel. I remember feeling exactly this way, and things are getting better. I believe they can for everyone.<BR/><BR/>Again, I am so very sorry for your loss, but I do believe that with some work it is possible to get to the point where your loss is balanced by a sense of peace, of feeling blessed for having ever known your son.....YummySushiPjshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11620034781085983867noreply@blogger.com